Last week I noticed something. When you push you get results.
This little blog is not much, but it is my little place on the internet. I am not visible to most people. In fact, in the real world I am almost invisible except to a few. It has been a bad habit that I need to break. Yes, being invisible is a bad habit that I want and need to break.
When you grow up being the quiet one, you tend to think of yourself as not much. You spend your time thinking of others before you voice demands for yourself. It becomes very ingrained in your personality to be a wallflower and watch when you really want to dance. Putting yourself and your dreams first is at first a frightening possibility because if you are not noticed you will not fail.
But if you don’t try you will never succeed.
If you don’t step out of the shadows you will never gain friends.
If you don’t push, you will be pushed to the side.
I have had my fill of it over the years. A relationship where all I ever did was give and did not receive back, a family that brushes me aside most of the time, a workplace that seems to think that I can do all the work without reward.
Last week I was excited about a project. The Necklace is complete, at least for now. I might make some more adjustments to it later. I have a few other projects to work on that is going to push my beadworking skills. I had 49 people visit my blog because I pushed it. I posted it several times on Twitter and posted it on Shock Totem.
Pushing made a difference in one day.
I have begun to look back over some of my grammar books from college. I need to push my skills in writing. I need to push my skills with words. Doing this every year, should remind me of proper sentence structures making my writing easier and more concise.
I will be pushing my work on twitter and FB. It is one of the easiest way to be known. I might annoy a few people, but that is life. I want to push the subscriptions of my blog, so I will be thinking of that. I want people to know me, so that when I do begin to be published, I will have a crowd cheering me on.
Pushing yourself can be challenging. You break the rules of self. You forge yourself into a new whole. You create a new person. Visibly you are no different to the outside, but inside you are moving forward.